Bill: I WANTED TO DROP EVERYTHING!

This is a pretty sad interview... Makes me feel as though a TH fanaction should commence to tell Bill that we're always by his side, no matter what.

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Tokio Hotel America - Bill: "I WANTED TO DROP EVERYTHING!

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BILL: “I WANTED TO DROP EVERYTHING!”

Bill has never been in a more thoughtful mood! Only in BRAVO the Tokio Hotel front man reveals how sad he is sometimes.

A recording studio, hidden away in a backyard in Berlin-Schönefeld. Together with BRAVO reader Nora (13) Bill Kaulitz (20) is currently standing inside a recording booth on the first floor of the building. She won a part in “Arthur and the Invisibles 2” (in cinemas from 26th November 2009) with BRAVO. Bill dubs the main character, Arthur. Though for now the Tokio Hotel singer is taking care of Nora, supporting her while recording. Both of them are getting along well, Bill is having lots of fun, is laughing all the time. However, he suddenly shows a totally different side [to himself] during the BRAVO interview that’s following…

Bill, are you happy?
I’m totally happy with my career. Our album “Humanoid” is being received incredibly well. We’re more successful with it in the charts than with our last album in most European countries! I wished my private life would go just as well. I don’t know what I need to be content – however, I’m not.

Any idea why it’s like that?
Maybe because I’ve got no time to really be happy about what I’ve experienced. I can’t celebrate or enjoy our success because I’ve always got something new to do. And I’m still missing love. Unfortunately…

How can you find it? Can we help?
I just don’t know either. (sighs) There are many people trying to find a partner on reality shows. However, “Bill in Love” would absolutely not be for me. To build up trust with a girl in front of a camera – that doesn’t work.. Unfortunately it’s very unlikely that I’ll meet someone privately just like that. After all I’m not going outside, not even shopping!

And why don’t you just escape your world for once and go out without securities?
To be honest I don’t even want to try it, am even scared of it! It’s difficult for me to go to a club by myself, especially in Europe. Even with securities it very much feels like a photo shoot or a signing session to me. Those times I feel like an animal in a zoo. However, that’s of course part of being a celeb. Maybe I’ll meet someone through my job one day – who knows…? If love really happens to come along, it’ll probably be totally random.

Are you at least happy with yourself?
Sometimes I can’t stand myself at all. I don’t watch performances of myself – I can’t stand myself on TV. I’m also annoyed that I’m constantly thinking about something. That I’m agitated and not relaxed so often. I always check twice whether the door is locked. [I] Have a look around ten times [to see] whether I really haven’t forgotten anything. I think I just have to get more relaxed.

Are you afraid of the future?
Yes. Who knows what I’ll be doing in five or ten years? It would be my nightmare to envision having an office job in front of a computer. That just isn’t for me. Even back in school I’ve already had an issue with authority. I just can’t listen to anyone. I’m hoping that I’ll always be able to be my own boss.

Do you also lose it sometimes – or are you more like constantly being nice?
I’m very emotionally charged, [and] have already yelled at the guys or other members of the team often if something doesn’t go right or isn’t to my liking.

What does an argument between Tokio Hotel actually look like?
In the past we’ve also been beating each other. Nowadays we’re more about mind games…

Really?! What does that look like?
In that case we don’t talk to each other anymore. Or we deliberately cancel somebody else’s appointments: If I’m really looking forward to a photo shooting and Tom’s mad at me, he’ll secretly cancel it. However, any trouble is mostly gone the following day.

Has anyone of you ever said “I’ve had enough! I quit!” when you were fighting?
Nobody has said it out loud yet but every one of us has had that thought already! There have also been moments when I thought: I’m not doing this anymore, I’m dropping everything! And this still happens: that I’m thinking, I just want to have time to myself.

What kind of situations are the times everything gets too much for you?
When I’m at a loss or I’m running out of ideas. Then there’s also days I just want to pack my things—and would rather not hear anything about the band anymore for a year. However, in the end I think about the fans again, [and] about the strength they give us and how much fun it actually is for me to be the front man of Tokio Hotel.
BRAVO


(Nora/Bill): BRAVO winner Nora got a dubbing part in the animated film “Arthur and the Invisibles 2” – Bill is helping her during the recordings.

Small band picture: Band colleagues and true friends: the Tokios Gustav (21), Bill (20), Tom (20) and Georg (22, pictured from left)




Small Bill picture: Bill dubs the character Arthur. He’s having a blast doing so. However, he’s not always in such a good mood like here…

Big Bill picture: Bill from Tokio Hotel (“Lass uns laufen”/”World behind my Wall”) [being] very serious: “Sometimes I’m feeling very lonely!”

This interview made me very upset. It's so mentally draining to imagine Bill so unhappy.

I think that would be a wonderful idea, the fanaction. To reassure Bill that no matter what, we're supporting him. He could take an entire year away from the music industry, away from the limelight - sure, I would miss the interviews and weekly THTVs, but that hardly matters if a break will help Bill feel better about himself. And find true love and all that.

Not being spiteful or anything, but I don't think Bill can find his true love right at the moment - the timing would be too straining and hectic. He's at the highest peak of his career, his music is his passion. It just wouldn't be right. But I'm definitely sure that he'll find the girl of his dreams in the future, when the whole hype has died down a bit and he's got more freedom to go where he pleases and such. Just not right now.

He'll have to be patient, but the wait will be worth it.

... God, I wanna snuggle him so bad. Poor pooky bear Bill.

Oh! And the twins can be so mean to each other. Cancelling Bill's photo shoot, Tom? Tsk tsk tsk.

Aiyo Tom so mean!! *angry face*

Pooooorrrr Bill. I dont think it'd make a difference to his career if he took a break. When he comes back the fans will still love him the same, if not more. o.O

He should come to Malaysia for his true love. xD We're unique people! Multi-racial some more.

cheeser93 wrote:He should come to Malaysia for his true love. xD We're unique people! Multi-racial some more.

I like the way you think, Cheeser!

yindale wrote:This interview made me very upset. It's so mentally draining to imagine Bill so unhappy.

I think that would be a wonderful idea, the fanaction. To reassure Bill that no matter what, we're supporting him. He could take an entire year away from the music industry, away from the limelight - sure, I would miss the interviews and weekly THTVs, but that hardly matters if a break will help Bill feel better about himself. And find true love and all that.

Ja, I think that will just make Bill's day, wouldn't it? A year's break is fine with us. I don't think we need so much distraction since we have SPM next year! O.o Bill needs a break! OMG, imagine if we had a fanaction and called it "BILL'S BREAK!" Lol but at the same time, he might not want the break. Since he likes being TH's frontman and all that. I'm a confused Quinbeh.

Not being spiteful or anything, but I don't think Bill can find his true love right at the moment - the timing would be too straining and hectic. He's at the highest peak of his career, his music is his passion. It just wouldn't be right. But I'm definitely sure that he'll find the girl of his dreams in the future, when the whole hype has died down a bit and he's got more freedom to go where he pleases and such. Just not right now.

No, I don't think he can find true love now too. But who knows, maybe he'll start performing in Copenhagen or something and he finds her. I would be happy for him - maybe a little broken-hearted. But heck, it's what Bill wants. You know, whenever you read comments about Bill finding his true love, some fans get SO obsessed. They keep going on about how it should be them and how Bill and them should elope and run off to Finland or something. But what they don't see is that they are all talking about themselves and not about Bill. Of course, I'm not implying all the fans. But there are just some who go overboard without meaning to. Makes me sad, really, that we are the ones who support him and tear him down.

He'll have to be patient, but the wait will be worth it.

Best quote from you all day, dale!

Oh! And the twins can be so mean to each other. Cancelling Bill's photo shoot, Tom? Tsk tsk tsk.

It's just like Tom to do something like that, eh?

cheeser93 wrote:
He should come to Malaysia for his true love. xD We're unique people! Multi-racial some more.

Ah, yes... He could try his luck here. Anyway, fun fact about Bill Kaulitz #2: He prefers it if his true love is from another country.

General fun fact: There are 7 people in the world made specially for you. You just have to pick one.

Quinby Yan wrote:Ja, I think that will just make Bill's day, wouldn't it? A year's break is fine with us. I don't think we need so much distraction since we have SPM next year! O.o Bill needs a break! OMG, imagine if we had a fanaction and called it "BILL'S BREAK!" Lol but at the same time, he might not want the break. Since he likes being TH's frontman and all that. I'm a confused Quinbeh.

Ahh, I'm itchin' to go and post up the first fan action in its topic. But I promised myself I wouldn't until we officially end construction. Hmm. As long as Bill doesn't overwork himself (though he probably does, the silly perfectionist workaholic) then I'm fine (err ok maybe not).

Quinby Yan wrote:No, I don't think he can find true love now too. But who knows, maybe he'll start performing in Copenhagen or something and he finds her. I would be happy for him - maybe a little broken-hearted. But heck, it's what Bill wants. You know, whenever you read comments about Bill finding his true love, some fans get SO obsessed. They keep going on about how it should be them and how Bill and them should elope and run off to Finland or something. But what they don't see is that they are all talking about themselves and not about Bill. Of course, I'm not implying all the fans. But there are just some who go overboard without meaning to. Makes me sad, really, that we are the ones who support him and tear him down.

Fans like that don't think before they act. Yes, it would probably make me feel a bit... down, when Bill finally find "The One", but that's because he's my celebrity crush - and he's going to stay that way. I'll definitely be happy for him. I can be realistic with these things, I'm not going to force myself into weird situations to try and grab Bill's attention. The girl he falls for better treat him good, though, or I'm coming after her with a parang.

Quinby Yan wrote:
Best quote from you all day, dale!

Har har har.

Quinby Yan wrote:It's just like Tom to do something like that, eh?

yindale wrote:
Ahh, I'm itchin' to go and post up the first fan action in its topic. But I promised myself I wouldn't until we officially end construction. Hmm. As long as Bill doesn't overwork himself (though he probably does, the silly perfectionist workaholic) then I'm fine (err ok maybe not).

He's like David Jost... How sweet. xD But ja, he should be working himself so hard. O.o He's not even 25 yet! O.o It would be a nice fanaction eh? But what if Bill doesn't like it. OMG. That's not good.

Fans like that don't think before they act. Yes, it would probably make me feel a bit... down, when Bill finally find "The One", but that's because he's my celebrity crush - and he's going to stay that way. I'll definitely be happy for him. I can be realistic with these things, I'm not going to force myself into weird situations to try and grab Bill's attention. The girl he falls for better treat him good, though, or I'm coming after her with a parang.

Lol I can imagine you hiding behind a bush ready to jump up with a warcry at the first moment the girl decides to dump Bill *touchwood, of course*. I hope Bill finds her too. I'm not going to be as selfish as some fans. I hope Bill finds her and finds what he's looking for in her. I hope he gets married to her and that they live a happy life onwards. And I'll still be supporting him.